I want to Skip November 10

No, I do not have an exam on that day.. it was long ago that I was once a student.

It's also not the day that the world will see a naked picture of me.. if i have one.

My credit card bills aren't due on that day either.

And definitely that's not the day when Mariah will drop her latest album.

But that's the day when somebody, my somebody, will say... I DO.

I'm having a hard time coping with the situation.

Seeing him and acting like everything's ok.

I'm awake and not floating in a fantasy world.

My heart bleeds.

I fake smiles and laughters.

Sorrow is translucent behind my eyes.

Fighting back tears.

Maybe what we have was no more than a tease.

Just an ilussion.

But backed up by his proofs of love.

I'm invited to his special ocassion.

What am I to do?

I dread to hear him say those words.

Because I will never be the one to answer that.

He can never put that ring in my finger.

This is reality.

Heartbreakingly. It's a fact.

I'll put on a brave face.

But he knows it'll be just an act.

I might cry. I might sob.

I just want to skip November 10.

For it not to happen.

But am no psycho.

I'm not selfish.

I want him to be happy.

I wish them well.

my golden mom...

tomorrow, october 20, would be my mom's 50th birthday. one of the many things i'm proud of is she doesn't loook her age! she's so pretty and still is sexy. i even thank her for passing her bootylicious genes to me.. hehe.. i have so many plans. i want her to have everything and more that she can possibly think of. i want to put up a great party for her, have some fireworks which we did when my father turned 50 last august 4.

though we do not always go hand in hand, like any other relationships, ours is not perfect. we do have miscommunications, gaps and petty fights. but that really does not undermine how much i love my mom. am sorry for all of the things i said and did that hurt you. i may not be the perfect son that you may have pictured back when i was still in your womb. but you made me feel that i'm your son, i'm special, i'm loved and i have your trust and belief. you believe in me more than i believe in myself. thank you for everything. i love you and happy birthday.

Get Ready for B!

The culprit in making bootylicious appear in a dictionary, Beyonce Knowles is heading to Manila!

Beyonce, a ten-time Grammy winning artist will stage her first ever Philippine concert on November 7 at The Fort Open Field. Billed as Beyonce Experience will have tickets ranging from P5,665 to a very reasonable P618. In less than a month’s time, the Bonifacio Global City will again be steaming hot with the sexy sight and sounds of this Hollywood music superstar.

-- Am so excited.. When Christina Aguilera was here, me and my friends were talking that if Beyonce will perform here we should also watch it. And now that it's set to happen, definitely we'll be one of the many screaming fans witnessing how talented girlfriend is. Can't wait!

Marimar is now a Mommy

Viva! go out to singer Thalia and her husband, Tommy Mottola, who welcomed a baby girl, Sabrina Sakae, on Sunday, October 7. Thalía who was born Ariadna Thalía Sodi Miranda and her husband, Tommy Mottola, the former chairman and CEO of Sony Music Entertainment welcomed their first child in New York who weighed 8 pounds. 4 ounces. The first name means “princess” in English, and the second means “prosperity” in Japanese.

-- Time really flies. Seems like she was here yesterday singing Nandito Ako and everybody is going gaga over Marimar, Maria la del Barrio, Rosalinda, etc. She's like an honorary Filipina. She's famous all over the world and the Philippines is not an exception. Her star power comes not only from her beauty, acting or singing prowess but also from her figure. There's no doubt that she can have her gorgeous body back in no time. She's insanely sexy. And I envy her waistline!

Dirty (Prince) Harry

The latest scandal that rocks the Windsor family involves their very own, the rumored alcoholic Prince Harry appearing in a compromising video and some pictures. THESE are the shocking pictures that show Prince Harry inhaling vodka through his nose in a drinking game medical experts warn could KILL.

In the video, pals cheer loudly as Harry slugs a bottle cap of vodka, swills it around his mouth, spits it back into the cap and then snorts it up his nose. After a while, Harry—a 2nd Lieutenant in the Blue and Royals —closes his eyes and shakes his head as the alcohol, shooting straight into his bloodstream, takes effect. Experts on drink abuse have warned that the game is potentially deadly. But the "fun" doesn't stop there. He was also pictured licking other guy's nipple while spending a vacation in Namibia! Licky Licky!

-- It may be fun to some but what I really think is that this tabloid-perfect scenario is disturbing. Everything seems to be wrong. Though for 5 seconds, my dirty mind was on because of the nipple-licking thing. But really, I think it's stupid that they let these moments be captured by a cam. I mean, if they can't help to do that, let it not be immortalize thru a camera. Knowing that this would give another wrinkle to Lizzie II, balding Charles, cute William and the rest of the royals. Also, it's so disappointing to see the child of the most beloved Princess doing such horrid thing. I just wish that he soon straighten up his act and not be such a waste. Aargh, it breaks my heart!

Fashionista or a Hollywood Wreck in the Making??

Vanessa Hudgens

-- She's a glamazon in training!! She does have nude photos scattered all over the net but that doesn't eradicate the truth that gurl got some style.. if she's wearing any clothes! She was once quoted that it's easy to stay away from the drama and it's stupid. She easily forgets huh.. But she's gorgeous, talented, and half-Filipina. It's so forgiving.. How I wish Zac too have nude pics.. haha..

i need a HERO

i've been watching the tv series HEROES and i really love it. but i wasn't able to watch the first few episodes kaya ang ending nag heroes marathon aq sa internet.. go and check megavideo.com coz may compilation ng heroes dun.. sobrang nakaka-hook cia grabe! i usually take a bath at around 5-6pm.. pro dhil sa kakanood q eh.. 9.30pm na q nkaligo.. late tuloy sa pagtambay! hehe..

Me Likey

i didn't go anywhere! it's just that i am "busy" making tambay. and also rekindling the friendship i have with my old friends here na hindi ko nakikita nung nagtatrabaho pa ko. i have just completed my clearance from ibm and i can actually look for a job now without any hassle. but as usual.. tinatamad ako.

the past couple of days was very intoxicating! and it's because there's like an occasion every other day. kung sino sino ang nagbi-birthday. and you know that together with the happennings is the usual inuman session ng barkada. of course sa mga inuman, present ang mga boylets..

so basically, the reason why i haven't written some posts here is because of the guys who give me another reason to find a dayshift job. because if i'll work at night again, then it would be next to impossible to make tambay and make landi na rin with them.. haha..