when it rains...

it really damn pours!.. almost 2 months after i resigned from peoplesupport.. i will finally work again.. this time at west contact services.. another call center.. pioneer batch and i will have a freaking signing bonus.. equal to the amount of my basic pay!.. haha.. and at long last, i will get my backpay from ps which should be at least substantial enough for me to give in to my caprices.. haha..

pre-occupied

it's been a while since my last post. and during that period, lots of things happened that even i gets amused by it. i resigned from work. i had a boyfriend. we broke up. after 5 days, ai met this wonderful guy. who's promised to be everyhting that i have wished for. and so far, he's not letting me down. fate works mysteriously. i was kind of devastated when i broke up with rich. but then again, jay-r proved to be someone else. we clicked. both of our families know that we're together. and there's no you-and-me-against-the-world drama. also money is not an issue with my relationship with jay-r. and by that, i'm overwhelmingly happy. haha.. love it. but i have to find a job though, coz christmas is coming and my responsibilities come knocking in our door every month. so busy. so busy with my boyfriend.

less and new

it has been a month since i was assigned and trained to take a new line of business in my account.. from level 1 to level 2.. i ended my first month in the specialty queue without hitting any metrics! i really felt that i didn't deserve the promotion of sort. and i don't settle for mediocre.. i wasn't born and i didn't grow up to be fine with a performance that's not remarkable and which is under par of my standard. with focus and hard work, i was able to do better. i was able to hit some but not all. still i'm happy that i improved. which is acceptable because there's still an elbow room to do good the next time.
but things are changing. people are leaving. and adjustment is inevitable. my supervisor of 6 months made the choice to leave the company reasonably because a better opportunity awaits her. also a former mentor and team-mate resigned as well. plus, a budding friend said that she too is resigning. i know that what is happening is natural. but i still can't help but be sad about it.

it was the time of the year again for realignment. meaning, new team, new team mates. and with all of this change, i hope i can cope with it coz it has always been hard for me when the situation calls for me to adopt new environment or whatnot.

15-minute of sleep

happy new year!!!

december 31, i have a shift till 4.30 in the afternoon.. excited to come home so that i could help in preparing for media noche.. i was lying in my bed trying to get some sleep so that i'd be an energizer bunny all throughout the night when 2 of my cousins show up in the door of my room.. they were there asking for forgiveness for the stupidity that the group has done to me.. i'm not singling out a person because they were a lot of them who's to blame really for what happenned.. i said my piece and pointed out that i was hurt by them.. they said theirs but it wasn't justifiable.. they called "back-ups" to convince me to join the group's new year's eve party.. they seem to be sincere.. if you look at it, it was just a misunderstanding and i would be over reacting if woudn't forgive them and not show up in the party.. and besides it's a new year's eve party! i couldn't stand to not be with them knowing that there is an occasion.. alas, group hug happenned.. i forgave them but i said that i won't expect much from them after that conflict.. they got my point.. which they can't quite question as of the moment..

i went downstairs and spent some quality time with my family.. and my family is complete in attendance! hehe.. we're taking pictures and eating the dishes that my mom and my sis prepared for us.. but this year seems to be different maybe because we didn't use a single firecracker.. and it was for a good reason because my two niece were unfortunately not feeling well at that time and my eldest sister is pregnant.. so gunpowder smoke would be lot annoying and harmful to them.. plus the fact that we're on a budget! haha.. we just blasted our stereos off, clinked the caseroles, blew the trumpets and blew the horn of our car.. 12midnight the surrounding skyline was lighted by different fireworks.. courtesy of the unknown within the vicinity.. free fireworks show!! hehe..

i then went out and joined my friends.. still bitter but okay.. hehe.. red horse is unstoppable.. and it was pouring all night.. i was happy not only because i'm friends with them again but because of my "somebody from november 10" wss also there.. with his wife.. ouch!.. but whaddaheck.. am okay but still bitter!.. ahaha.. we were singing, dancing and just plain making a fool out of ourselves while getting intoxicated.. screaming happy new year and giving each other a beso.. my voice was rambling.. still i was able to consume (unconsciously) a pack of marlboro menthol in about 2 hours or so.. and taking care of myself is one thing that i want to do this year.. but i'm such a big phelon.. breaking that ode in the first few hours of 2008!.. haha..

but what ticked me off that night was globe.. fucking shit!.. there's no unlitxt!.. and sulitxt is not dependable!.. good thing i have sufficient buffer in my credit.. so i was able to text those who sent me their greetings.. no text no greeting.. haha..

i was drinking all night yet i was not drunk but then i had to go home for i need to go to work on 7:30am.. haha.. good luck!.. i entitled this entry as 15-minute of sleep because yes you guessed it right.. i had only that short of time to sleep.. which i'm convincing myself up to now is actually a power nap! ahaha.. i wasn't able to have a hot water for my bath because i would be late.. and for the nth time, i was late again!.. haha.. migraine is kicking in.. still i need to take calls.. good thing we don't have a supervisor yet and we were on priority six so there are literally no calls until the last hour of our shift.. i had several cups of coffee to keep me awake but still i was sleeping in my station.. well, but there's one thing that made me not to sleep and that is my crush!!.. ahaha.. such a flirt.. we were inches away in the pantry standing in line for the vendo machine! he smiled at me!!! ahaha.. cheese.. my co-workers and i brought some foods to share with each other.. we were like convicts in a jail! ahaha.. but the foods were delicious.. they enjoyed the sweet beans that i brought..

i forgot my cellphone at home because i was late.. i wasn't able to put it in my bag because i was in a hurry.. now i'm at home alone because my family went to fun ranch at tiendesitas and i wasn't able to come because they had no contact with me and i didn't know that we will be going out today!.. it's now 7:45pm and i just ate beef and mushroom, still deprived of sleep.. so i think i should get ready and get some deserve sleep!

what a way to start this year!!!

nosebleeding..

hooray!!! well am not celebrating because am having had nosebleeds recently but because we have e-net connection again here at home.. we terminated our contract with smart bro and got a globe.. dahil sa globe posible.. haha.. i can update my blogsite as much as i want and if i still have the stamina to do so on everyday basis because again am working at a graveyard shift..

nosebleed!!! because we're still in the client specific training, that's what we, well, i for myself, feel every now and then. i can still remember that information overload is the one thing that you can expect if you'rn a training for an account at any call center. that's what i also experienced back in ibm daksh. and here at peoplesupport things are no different. it's just a good thing that our trainor is friendly and he always extends our breaks which gives us more time to pollute our lungs while we're taking a cig in the company's "lung center".. haha..

and this is my world again.. i wanted to have another but then again maybe am short of being brave to explore a different place.. i just hope that more than anything else, this time i would have the will to stay in the business and work my way up in the industry's ladder..

confused but not dazed and so many things..

it's been a while since my last post.. am so sorry.. smart bro wasn't as reliable as much as i hoped for.. but eniweiz a lot of things happenned since my last entry.. you can read that i was melodramatic the last time..

but before that, me and my friends watched beyonce at the fort.. the ticket was a complimentary from my good friend from high school christine.. and no, we were not at the general admission! social! haha.. beyonce was such a phenomena! she delivered and went beyond everybody's expectation.. sad because we were unable to catch the first few songs that she sang because we're late.. there was a heavy traffic around the fort.. finding a parking spot was such a challenge.. and running to the entrance was exhausting.. but it was all worth it.. i love her! she's not only a singer but a total performer..

after the concert, we went to eat at kfc buendia cor. pasong tamo at the caltex station.. we we're still in a hyper mood because we're still reminiscing how great beyonce is.. but we received a terrible news.. my friend, kate, the twin sister of christine, wasn't able to passed the board exam to be an engineer.. she said there were 4000+ who took the exam and only 1247 passed.. she was devastated.. she was sobbing and wasn't able to eat her food..

but the roller coaster ride of that night didn't end there, because as tita connie, mom of christine and kate, was about to eat her spaghetti, we were shocked to find a big dead cockroach!!! yuuuck! i suddenly lost my appetite.. we did what a frustrated and angry customer would do.. we made a scene in that store! asking for an apology, a refund for everything that we bought and an incident report.. the manager was startled.. he didn't know what to do.. they gave us everything we demanded for except for the incident report.. we actually took pictures of the spaghetti with the cockroach.. it was on christine's cell.. as soon as i get the copy of it.. i will devote a new post everyhting about our kfc experince..

but back to me dreading november 10...

yes.. it did happen. he got married.. i was even the emcee of their wedding's reception.. i think i did good.. i was able to come through it without any tear falling down on my cheeks.. it was so surreal, like i was having an outer body experience.. i can't believe that it was actually happenning.. that i am keeping a smiling face all throughout the wedding, the reception and the party in their house.. he was every bit of what a groom should be.. as much as i want to, i can't be his bride.. maybe in another lifetime.. haha.. but really, i'm happy for them.. bitter but still living.. soon, i can get over him like i got over to the many of them before..

am not hurting severely anymore.. maybe because flirting helps the heart heals.. you may disagree with me but it keeps me busy and it also give a smile to my face.. it's my way of diverting my attention from one love to another prospect.. haha.. but i'm not on a mission.. i just flirt a lot.. but at the end of the day, it's still him, my "somebody"..

and lastly, i can look forward to the end of the month.. bum no more! i'm a part of peoplesupport now.. and my wallet which has been in a drought for so long will be able to taste thousands again!.. haha.. at last i can pay my credit card bills.. and not only that, i'll be getting my backpay from ibm daksh!! am so rich this end of november!!! haha..

so many things.. so lot to say.. am so confused..

A SAD REALITY

blogging has done good things to me.. in a way it's a therapy because i get to express the thoughts and emotions that i am feeling. it's also a way to find new acquaintances, read their entries and most of the time relate with the blogger. those are some of the pros, i didn't realize that this blog thing would be an avenue for haters..

sad but true.. i was bombarded by anonyma (the name used by the hater) in my chatbox with such an ill-feeling towards me and how i do my blogs.. at first, i laughed it off because that's how i deal with such negativity in my life. but then it strucked me that this person exerted so much effort to get me pissed.. the person posted the same message for over 110 times..

my mama jacq ( http://atejackie.blogspot.com ) said that i could delete those messages and find some information about that person thru my chatbox account. and i did what she told me to do.. and it hit me that the hater was from IBM DAKSH, the company which i have worked with for a year.

it got me thinking that how come the people i know from there could do so such thing to me.. and they even tried to do it anonymously. i was angry but at the same time i was also sad. the people there are my friends. but i guess that's the harsh reality. there will be people whom you can't please no matter what you do and for sure there will be people whom you consider as your friends will be the one to stab you at your back.

so much for being an IBMer..

5 in the morning..

last night i had my resignation paper signed by our operations manager and my team leader.. i needed a few signatures pra ma-clear na q sa ibm daksh.. my 1st ever "corporate community"..

it makes me sad thinking that i will leave my beloved workplace.. i will surely miss my friends and of course their uber fun company.. it's pretty funny seeing them taking in calls and getting irate at the customer! haha.. saying to myself.. "poohtah.. ganyan din aq at mahirap man aminin, mami-miss q yang ginagago ang mga customers habang nka-mute aq!! haha.." i wasn't able to take some pics wid them knina kc they're so busy.. high volume ata ang calls.. at mahirap na.. bka makita p ng om nmin n gmagamit kmi ng cell o dgcam sa floor at i-confiscate pa.. but here's some of our pics dati..

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i decided to go home na ng 1.30.. azar kc c jownie.. hnd p mag-break pra yosi muna sa baba then uwi na q.. took a cab then pag-uwi q may inuman session!!! there are hardly any familiar face that i see.. mga 18 cla.. i know some of them but am really not close sa kanila.. i learned na despedida pla ng 1 nlang brkda kc punta cia sa saudi to work.. mag-stay cia dun ng 2 years.. it's pretty obvious na lasing na cla.. half of the group were drinking granma.. ang nkakabaliw na grand matador.. and nka 16 na long neck na ata cla.. at ung iba nman ay tamang sipa lang mula sa red horse..

aun, join nman aq.. tamang kwentuhan lng, inom at yosi.. at may isang boylet na ever palipad hangin.. he seems interested to me.. pro my god bka ilusyon q n nman ito.. but really, he's making way so that he catch my attention.. aun.. 4 am ntapos ang madamdaming inuman.. with matching 18 speeches (ksma q) sa pag-advise kung ano ggwin nya dun sa saudi.. prang debut! kaloka.. hehe..

bum.. for now!!!

there's no turning back.. i will resign na sa work q as call churva and all sa ibm daksh.. nka-1 year na rin nman aq.. actually, the account that i handled there is a dream job.. fixed schedule mondays-fridays.. 9pm-6.30am.. sat and sunday ang off.. at kaka-increase plang ulit ng basic salary q.. but i needed to make a decision to quit na for medical kembot.. last june i had a tonsilopharyngitis.. i could hardly talk.. i had to stopped smoking for at least 1 and a half weeks.. (which seems like forever for me).. and also a single capsule of antibiotic costs P100+.. eh 15 pcs ang kailangan at may iba pang ksma a meds un.. so it seems like i am working just to buy my meds which is kind of unjust.. after kong gumaling.. ngkaskit n nman aq.. this time, the initial finding was positional vertigo.. it's scary! gumagalaw ang surroundings q n pra silang nagse-sway and all.. at mnsan nwawala ang sense of balance.. i might fell and get bagok my head! lols.. but seriously, i had it checked up at makati medical center after several tests, the results are good. i don't have vertigo nor there's nothing wrong with my eyes.. so the doctor said that it must be stressed from my job. it's not advisable anymore n maagtrabaho aq sa gabi.. after a month and half of being indefinite leave sa work.. e2 magpapasa na q ng resignation paper q citing because of emdical reasons.. ang masakit lng.. tumagal aq ng 1 year sa work n un ng walang naipon.. until i opened my closet and saw the wardrobe and bags that i have.. the perfumes and make up sa tokador q, the shoes and flip flops on top of the cabinet.. aahh dun pla napunta ang sweldo.. haha.. haayy.. no work muna bakasyon ever dapat.. pro wla na q pera!! waahhh..